I didn’t understand what it meant to be loved and I didn’t know how to show love even though I thought I did. Everything came crashing the moment I realized that I had always been on the giving end all in the name of wanting to be there for others and not giving up on my love for them. I was lost in the thought that maybe one day I would love someone and they would love me and be that friend that I was to them.

However, it didn’t matter because I was never a priority to anyone. My eyes were shut away from those who truly cared, while I was trying to connect with “new people”. These same new people told me to get friends and be free with them but they never really cared, therefore, my heart got broken over and again.

All I needed was to focus on those who truly cared and that made me a priority. Someone once told me to not focus too much on people, because in the process you get to lose touch with yourself and this is true.

Life is not first about the number of friends we have, or the number of people around you. It first is about you: the quality of life you live, the ability to know the seasons of people in your life and your understanding of your role in your own life and in others life. Do not try to seek attention from others that you forget your own self and pay less attention to you. You matter and you should be good to you, live a good life. Do not hold on to people, LET GO.

In times and seasons where you need people they will always come your way, and they will always leave. So the only true person you have got that will always remain is you. Delight in your solitude and embrace your person.

Lana